This is a question about self-preservation and love problems. Hope you like it!
My ex broke up with me a couple of days ago. I noticed there was something with her. She had much in school and a bit down, also she started to push me away more and more, and it felt like she felt uncomfortable when i touched her. I asked her what happened and that we should talk about it, she said that there is nothing to worry about and that it'll get better.
We decided to meet one day and I had to know so I pushed her to tell me and it all stopped with her and me crying. Later that night we talked and somehow missunderstood each other. I though we had a break, she thought we'd broke up.
After 3 weeks of what i thought was a break I had to talk to her so I showed up at her house and told her that we have to set a date for the pause. In the end of the summer. After that she asked me to come in and we started to talk. Suddenly I knew she felt uncomfortable and avoided to answer me. She did not show any feelings. Just put a huge barrier around her which I couldn't get around. She avoided eye-contact. I asked if she had feelings for me. "I don't know". She already met a new guy also and she said she never felt so happy the last couple of days as she did towards the end.
I think what she did was "self-preservation" Did she?
Also, is she confused? Are there still feelings, only suppressed? Is there a chance she'll "wake up" from this state och mind and remember the nice things we had in our relationship and maybe contact me? Or is this something definite, that I make her feel bad and she wants to protect herself forever?
//Heart broken (almost ready to move on) guy